I’m looking at counselors again that accept my insurance because i never really got on that train. ive mostly ever had women counselors, save the one time at coa i made an appointment with the babe dude counselor. and that was less comfy only because his eyes were really piercing blue and he was a babe.
but there is a white-haired man who takes my insurance. other times i haven’t clicked his profile because, like, white haired dudes, right? but he has loads of experience, and his specialties are right around what i struggle most with.
im hesitant in a way bc obviously
but in some ways i feel like with the women counselors I’ve seen, maybe i project my mom on them a bit?? like i’m a lil too sweet and polite with them, because i feel like i should be sweet and polite??? maybe seeing this guy will be awful, but maybe i’ll also give less fucks about what he thinks of me